Deathly Love '

And so , till now that i know .

confession spoils it all .

how i'd wished it had never happened before .

or rather never did i mention this bfore .

so at the very end , i was meant to be hurt .

i was suppose to be hurt .

so you did consider over whether that wardever you did will hurt other ppl or not .

but definately not mine .

No , never did it cross your mind .

however , i still hope you'll be happy , in wardever it may be .

you really have a cute smile .

& to that bastard - no point to continue lying to me when the truth is alrdy lying infront of my cold eyes .

shut it .

i've got eyes to see , brains to think , heart to feel .

fancy being so obvious & then run ard the bush just to lie to me .

ain't you tired of doing so ?

what a joke !

fuck you , total bastard . i hate you .

I hope i can fall aslp peacefully ltr .

i hope i won't wake up crying .

i hope i won't dream that nightmare .

i hope that feeling goes away .

i hope ....

too scary . that feeling came back instantly .

so lost . now i don't know ward to feel .

freak out . im afraid of closing my eyes .

why ?

why must this happen , on me ?

& , one last thing to admit .

i have totally no courage to tell you that i like you .

you won't ever get to see this i suppose .

do you know that you actually have a heart-melting smile ?